Friday, September 4, 2009
Blah
This week hasn't been that encouraging... It's the Friday before a long weekend and I'm SO grateful. Don't get me wrong. I really do love my job. But this week has been the third of ridiculously hectic weeks and it's starting to take it's toll. Yesterday, it seemed like literally EVERYTHING was going wrong (boo). Today, I just feel very blah-like. At least it's half-way through the day and then I'll be going home to relax (or do house projects...I can never tell) for 3 straight days!!!
Thursday, August 6, 2009
What what?
Granted, I'm not sure as I've never felt it before, but I MAY be feeling Yoda-Monster kick.
The first time it happened was on the plane ride home, but I wasn't sure if it's b/c the tummy was getting upset or what...but then it happened again yesterday several times. And here's all I can think of to compare it to... It's, like, the opposite of a cramp. For the first few months, the tummy was upset a lot of the time. Sometimes it would be roll-ey, sometimes it would be hot-owie, sometimes it would be really crampy, sometimes there just seemed to be a LOT of tension, etc. Well, this isn't painful at all...and it's not like a cramp...it's like the opposite of a cramp. So instead of feeling like my insides are somewhat collapsing on themselves/curling up into a ball, it feels like something's expanding quickly and then will stop. Weird. I guess we'll see next week at the ultrasound if that is, in fact, what it is or not...although I'm not sure if/when it will happen again.
Plus, I guess today marks 19 weeks. Thank God I'm about half-way there to meeting my wee-one.
The first time it happened was on the plane ride home, but I wasn't sure if it's b/c the tummy was getting upset or what...but then it happened again yesterday several times. And here's all I can think of to compare it to... It's, like, the opposite of a cramp. For the first few months, the tummy was upset a lot of the time. Sometimes it would be roll-ey, sometimes it would be hot-owie, sometimes it would be really crampy, sometimes there just seemed to be a LOT of tension, etc. Well, this isn't painful at all...and it's not like a cramp...it's like the opposite of a cramp. So instead of feeling like my insides are somewhat collapsing on themselves/curling up into a ball, it feels like something's expanding quickly and then will stop. Weird. I guess we'll see next week at the ultrasound if that is, in fact, what it is or not...although I'm not sure if/when it will happen again.
Plus, I guess today marks 19 weeks. Thank God I'm about half-way there to meeting my wee-one.
Who cares if it's pathetic?
1) I've only thrown up once in the past month, if I remember correctly. And it wasn't so bad b/c it was at my parent's house instead of my own (even though I think it's more than I've ever thrown up at one time in my entire life...I didn't know I ate that much in a week!!!)
2) I was uber-excited because I ordered the baby diapers before we went on our trip and they were at the house by the time we came back. I had to stay up late to open them up and go through them. How fun!
3) I believe we have all of our big items at our house. We got the crib and changing table for $75 secondhand. We just got a rocker-glider this week used for $25. I got a massive amount of cloth diapers (what I wanted) for $375. I got a never-used breast pump for $150 (normally $230 as it's hard-core and has great reviews). And I've gotten quite a few clothes and whatnot from freecycle and/or craigslist for inexpensive. Oh yeah, AND I got an exersaucer and a pack'n'play for free from freecycle. Cool, says I.
2) I was uber-excited because I ordered the baby diapers before we went on our trip and they were at the house by the time we came back. I had to stay up late to open them up and go through them. How fun!
3) I believe we have all of our big items at our house. We got the crib and changing table for $75 secondhand. We just got a rocker-glider this week used for $25. I got a massive amount of cloth diapers (what I wanted) for $375. I got a never-used breast pump for $150 (normally $230 as it's hard-core and has great reviews). And I've gotten quite a few clothes and whatnot from freecycle and/or craigslist for inexpensive. Oh yeah, AND I got an exersaucer and a pack'n'play for free from freecycle. Cool, says I.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
on my way to CA
So I'm taking three entire days off of work (and probably 30 extra minutes the day before) because my mommy offered to fly me and Hubby out to CA to visit. Certain people aren't supposed to find out until said time, but Papi is supposed to be in by this Friday (kiddos don't know) and then brother, hubby and myself are being flown out to visit (kiddos and dad don't know). Sure, it doesn't make logical sense to take the time off of work when I know it means I'll just have to take more unpaid time off later...but how can I help it? I haven't seen my Papi for a year and a half and haven't seen my mom and younger siblings for a half a year and only saw my older brother for a few hours in this last half-year... Plus, I want them to see me starting to look fatter. Ooh, I hope we play Cranium.
Monday, July 13, 2009
15 weeks
Next appt is ultrasound. Uber-excited about it.
Nausea is starting to slow down. Not disappear yet, but slow down.
Was able to actually get some stuff done this weekend. Not nearly as much as during a weekend when I'm not pregnant, but still got some stuff done, which is nice (finally). Plus, I slept a WHOLE bunch this weekend, which was great too.
At last dr appt, I got referred to a psychologist. Set up my appt for this Thursday. That should be interesting. Afraid of the cost, but hope my insurance will cover most of it.
What else: Oh yeah, I found out that one of my pairs of shorts still fits. It's a stretchy pair of athletic short, but who cares? They still fit and that's awesome. I've been wearing a lot of my free maternity clothes (from freecycle) lately, but it's nice to have something of "mine" that I can wear. Luckily, a lot of my shirts still fit. It's just that none of my bottoms do...Hm...
Nausea is starting to slow down. Not disappear yet, but slow down.
Was able to actually get some stuff done this weekend. Not nearly as much as during a weekend when I'm not pregnant, but still got some stuff done, which is nice (finally). Plus, I slept a WHOLE bunch this weekend, which was great too.
At last dr appt, I got referred to a psychologist. Set up my appt for this Thursday. That should be interesting. Afraid of the cost, but hope my insurance will cover most of it.
What else: Oh yeah, I found out that one of my pairs of shorts still fits. It's a stretchy pair of athletic short, but who cares? They still fit and that's awesome. I've been wearing a lot of my free maternity clothes (from freecycle) lately, but it's nice to have something of "mine" that I can wear. Luckily, a lot of my shirts still fit. It's just that none of my bottoms do...Hm...
Thursday, June 25, 2009
13 week update
1) I looked at myself in the mirror for the first time (really looked) last night and I think my tummy is noticeably popping out. I still think it looks like I'm just getting fatter, but at least I can SEE it instead of just wondering why NONE of my bottoms fit anymore. Boo. Still am wondering if it's multiples. Doc said she'd probably be able to tell at the next appointment if multiples were likely or not.
2) I'm pretty sure the depression has come back. Only it seems harsher now that I have massive hormones raging through my body. Hopefully it will subside when the nausea passes.
3) I obviously can't see the future (no matter how much I joke) but I'm still pretty positive I won't be trying to get pregnant after Yoda-Monster is released from my body.
2) I'm pretty sure the depression has come back. Only it seems harsher now that I have massive hormones raging through my body. Hopefully it will subside when the nausea passes.
3) I obviously can't see the future (no matter how much I joke) but I'm still pretty positive I won't be trying to get pregnant after Yoda-Monster is released from my body.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Unexpected
So here's the deal-e-o:
My stomach is upset about 95% of the time, but I've only actually ralphed once, which is good (I guess). I'm continuously looking for some type of food or beverage item that makes the pain go away for more than 15-30 minutes; even ginger snaps don't help.
Here's the part I didn't expect: I WANT to be 100% ecstatic about the baby (now nicknamed Yoda-Monster). I WANT to be able to enjoy every minute of it. However, in reality, I'm half-hunched over in pain most of the time. Isn't morning sickness supposed to be, like, in the morning and then go away? Or even at night and then go away? Pretty much anytime but then go away? It's not with me. It's there, like a puppy following me no matter where I go and what I do. I find myself ecstatic, but at the same time, wishing for this phase to be long gone and out of memory. I pray that it lasts only these next few weeks. I feel like I'm not sure how much more I can take...and I'm only 6 weeks along. AHHH!!!
Another crabbiness not on this topic is that I'm doing the most boring job EVER at my work right now. This book is going to drive me insane.
Honestly, though, I know it's not that bad and I should really just get over it, but even when I get in the mindset that it's not that bad and I won't let it bother me anymore, the pain's totally still there. I swear it's not all psychological. I can't control it.
And admitting my not-total-happiness makes me feel like a bad and selfish person and a horrible mom, but I figure being honest is always the best policy (and might just help dull the owies).
My stomach is upset about 95% of the time, but I've only actually ralphed once, which is good (I guess). I'm continuously looking for some type of food or beverage item that makes the pain go away for more than 15-30 minutes; even ginger snaps don't help.
Here's the part I didn't expect: I WANT to be 100% ecstatic about the baby (now nicknamed Yoda-Monster). I WANT to be able to enjoy every minute of it. However, in reality, I'm half-hunched over in pain most of the time. Isn't morning sickness supposed to be, like, in the morning and then go away? Or even at night and then go away? Pretty much anytime but then go away? It's not with me. It's there, like a puppy following me no matter where I go and what I do. I find myself ecstatic, but at the same time, wishing for this phase to be long gone and out of memory. I pray that it lasts only these next few weeks. I feel like I'm not sure how much more I can take...and I'm only 6 weeks along. AHHH!!!
Another crabbiness not on this topic is that I'm doing the most boring job EVER at my work right now. This book is going to drive me insane.
Honestly, though, I know it's not that bad and I should really just get over it, but even when I get in the mindset that it's not that bad and I won't let it bother me anymore, the pain's totally still there. I swear it's not all psychological. I can't control it.
And admitting my not-total-happiness makes me feel like a bad and selfish person and a horrible mom, but I figure being honest is always the best policy (and might just help dull the owies).
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